9,8,7,....,3,2,1,0

The number of days to A levels has effectively dropped to a single digit.

There are always 2 sides to a coin. A levels have washed away any remaining concerns that are left hanging on my mind. I suppose the very last one got swiped away when I experienced an adrenaline rush on Friday night.

But I was left on my bed flipping, turning and thinking. A scary thought hit me. I thought I wouldn't be able to complete my preparation for As and what am I gonna do if I don't do well enough to enter the university and course of my choice? There are so many what ifs and uncertainties. I wanted to get up so badly to revise but my eyes couldn't sustain me anymore. Anyway, I ended up praying for a peace of mind and fell asleep half an hour later. That's how long it took for the effect of adrenaline to wear out.

But that's just half an hour. Try 3 weeks.

Top 10 traits huh.

It's always nice to cheat yourself once in a while. I can't deny this is good.

Aesthetic

You appreciate art, beauty, and design; you know that they are not superficial but absolutely crucial to living the good life. You have good taste, and you're proud of it. Those with a high score on the "aesthetic" trait are often employed in literary or artistic professions, enjoy domestic activities — doing things around the house — and are enthusiastic about the arts, reading, and travel.

You don't think it's pretentious to be moved by art and beauty. You're not one of those who believe it doesn't matter what something looks like as long as it does its job.

Curious

You like to get to the bottom of things. You're not content knowing what someone did; you want to know why they did it.

You don't simply take things as they are and move on; you're not content skimming along on the surface; you don't feel you're wasting time by digging for the meaning of things.

Understanding

You are willing to take the time to find out what's going on with other people, especially if they're in distress. You're a good listener, you don't criticize, and you offer unbiased, respectful, honest advice when it's requested. With a high score on the "understanding" trait, it is likely that you are enthusiastic about charitable work, helping others, and making the world a better place.

You don't feel the need to impose your standards on others or say things that, even though true, cause pain. (This trait will stand as long as you remain guai and don't try to hop over the line :P)

Innovative

You come up with a lot of ideas; if one doesn't work out, there's always another waiting in the wings. You often have interesting solutions to difficult problems. You're practically a one-person brainstorming session.

You are less interested changing the world than in dealing with things as they are. Unlike those who spend all their time trying to solve problems, you prefer to zero in on things that work and stick with them.

Original

You are constantly coming up with new ideas. For you, the world as it exists is just a jumping-off place; what's going on inside your mind is often more interesting than what's going on outside.

You don't feel that the road to success is to be a realist and stick to the program; you never stop yourself from coming up with new ideas or telling the world what you're thinking about.

Organized

You like to think a task through before you embark on it. If it's the slightest bit complicated, you make a list (even if it's only in your mind) and methodically work your way through it. When you have a goal in mind, you're not satisfied until you reach it.

You are not one of those people who ignore the details, and you don't understand how anyone can get anything accomplished without thoughtful planning ahead of time.

Unflappable

You are not a slave to your emotions. It takes a lot to upset or unnerve you. That's why you're a good person to have around in a crisis. (hmm.. a lot. I am starting to suspect this or maybe, this is really A LOT.)

You don't let it all hang out, which means that those around you often don't know the pressures you're under or what you're going through. You're not the kind of person people run from in a crisis.

Passionate

You are in touch with your emotions, and sometimes you react before you think. The good news: you don't tamp down your feelings. The bad news: you sometimes say or do things that you later wish you could take back.

You do not live your life on an even keel; you do not go for long periods without experiencing some mood swings. (This is why I shouldn't be doing personality tests when As are near.)

Introspective

You like your own company; you're a very interesting person. Tracking your own mental processes, knowing what you're thinking and why you do what you do, is important to you. Often, what's going on in your mind is more compelling than what's going on outside. For the most part, those with a high score on the "introspective" trait enjoy reading, taking long walks, learning new things, and other solitary activities.

You are not someone who is constantly looking to be among a group of friends; you never feel bored when you are by yourself.

Creative

You are good at solving problems, coming up with original ideas, and seeing connections between things, connections that most other people miss. People with a high score on the "creative" trait often are employed in such fields as finance and scientific research, and enjoy avant garde and classical music as well as literary fiction and scholarly non-fiction.

You do not shun abstractions and concepts in favor of the concrete and tangible.

You can go try it out if you want. It's here.

Oh well, break's over. Back to work.

Evocation - It's as simple as that.

There are things that we'd love to remember, while there are some that we'd very much want to forget.

It's commonsensical that it helps us to remember and recall somethings if we were to jot it down, although that's also another way to consign a memory or the feelings linked to it to oblivion.

I figured that if you drum a song (preferably the one you like) into your head, preceding or following a certain event, anything that the song encompasses will be attached to that event. Thereafter, it'll be part of that event. It's like the music accompanying a scene in a movie, similar to how people relate a certain song to a certain show. To recall the event? Replay the music.

But then there's a catch (there's a catch to everything isn't it?). Firstly, that particular event has to be significant and noteworthy in a way that you'd want to keep it. And the chosen song has to be played while that memory last.

Review it before it's gone. Remember it when it's going to be gone. Recall it after it's gone.

The 3 Rs are just a coincidence. heh.

It's almost 2 years already.

How long will this last...?

And I'm out of JC.

The best acts came from the teachers. Yet, today's farewell assembly gave nothing more than a temporal dose of euphoria to our fatigued systems. Credits to Mr Wong who made the entire audi break into fits of laughter hahaha. Other than that, today would just be any other day in school. In fact, it ended on an almost boring note with chemistry consultation. I can't imagine how it'd have been if I've sat for the econs paper instead. It'd probably drain the infinitesimal energies left in me, leaving me more tired than everr.

This two years have certainly given me more than I've asked for. Life has released many more experiences it has in store for me in such a short span of time. I guessed it'd be appropriate for me to say that I've handled most well but I'd screwed up some too, learnt from them and moved on from one obsession to the next. I've come to realise that transitions had always been pleasant (for me) and it's only the aftermath of the move that puts you to the test. I see my politically incorrect self broke free from my chains, only to pull it back whenever I need to. Then, year two came with a new lock and shackled myself again.

Then again, there are so many things that have occurred that I simply can't put them down in plain words - totally expressionless and can't entirely justify every bit of them. If only a video of these two years was taken, I wouldn't not spare a thought replaying it over again, watching myself at the centre stage.

You say it best, when you say nothing at all.

So true. The inexpressible beauty of certain things. The best definition I can think of for Boomz!.

I am sleepy zzz...

Tomorrow.

If not for the leaflet I would be at a loss for ideas. At least my mum would get to celebrate her birthday differently this year.

So it's school-home-DOULOS then!

Wanted to leave out the school part but there're too many lessons. argh.

Short and eh.. sweet.

Bryan: "the feeling sucks right?"

Me: "ya. it sucks."

Damn right.

Boomz! whatever it means.

If you cross it, I'll extend it.

That's called elasticity.

I've decided not to post whatever I want to post yesterday.

Thanks.